"You need more time~~~bla"

Today
31st May 2010...
The investment class is so miserable...
it's neither the teaching method nor its difficult...

Through out the whole class...
i never spoke a word with her(i'm last person of the row n she's beside me)...
somethings had gone wrong between both of us or maybe just me...
i just can't come out a word nor a topic to discuss about...

is it i'm too coward?I dun think so...
but when i think back...
maybe is the past that stopped me...
whatever i said... will only get denied...
whatever things i had done... she will just revolted...
the way she treated me... was totally different to others...

Maybe i was wrong...
but was it so serious?
even though i was wrong...
it's just the thought went wrong...
But how am i going to clarify?
I knew it was impossible and that's y i never spoke a word...

What i want to keep is the friendship...
I didn't wish it happen...
at last it just went against me as well...
and it's had been last for so long...
nearly 1 year...
yet ppl around me still convinced me to take more time...
Time Time Time... Bla Bla Bla...

It did convincing initially...
but now it's around 1 year...
and they all still using the same excuse to convince me?!
Whatever~~~

I tried to do things that pleased her...
i tried to contact with her just when its necessary...
I had done everything...
and i think both of us will be just like this...
maybe forever... or maybe just few months..
For me,
'miserable' is best to describe both of us...
That's It